i will always return

I hear the wind call your name,
The sound that leads me home again,
It sparks up a fire, a flame that still burns,
Darling, to you i will always return.

I still feel your breath on my skin,
I hear your voice deep within,
The sound of my lover, a feeling so strong,
Please know that to you my heart will always belong.

Now i know its true,
My every road leads to you,
In the hour of darkness,your light gets me through,
I'd swim in your rivers,and be warmed by your sun,
And drown in your waters, because you are the one.

i cant stand the distance,
i cant dream alone,
i cant wait to see you,
And I'm on my way home.

after so many lonely sunsets, i have learned,
That to you, i will always return.

Victory Lap

For those of you who have schooled with me, you know i always take part in the cross country and the track events on sports day. usually 200m, 400m and 800m , 4x100m, 4x 400. I've always wanted to hold the best athlete title... but every year, something would happen.

- in primary school, the award was only eligible for the senior students who would be graduating from primary school that year, i.e the std. 6 students. So, finally when i was eligible in std six, i took all the running events. (100m, 200m and 4x100m)... i got gold for the 200m and the 4x100m and silver for the 100m. Sadly, the school came to a decision to give the title to the malay girl who got gold for 100m and 4x100m (we were on the same team) and silver for 200m. Why such an unfair coin-toss decision? My guess, racism.

-In form one, i took part in 200m, 400m, 800m , 4x400m, and 4x100m. The other girl who was also aiming for the best athlete award, took 1500m, 800m, 3km walk, 4x100m, and 4x400m. How do i remember so well? We were in the same house, making sure to not take the same events as each other to get the maximum number of gold medals for our sports house. yes, we we're in the same house, and the same relays.
The results? i got gold for everything and silver for the 800m. My competitor got Gold for all her events except the 3km walk.
Now, here we're the grounds for this years decision. Although both of us had contributed the same number of points to our sports house, the award was hers because she had won a medal in the interschool competition a week before and i hadn't.

-In form two, i had 5 gold medals, and another girl had got 5 gold medals as well. my medals were all in running. hers were in field events such as high jump and throwing.
As international sports practices, the field events are given more weight. She won the title that year.

- in form 3, i had the same number of gold and silver medals as my competitor. The reason they gave it to her instead of me was because she had won the cross country a few weeks before. The fact that i had won the cross country all the previous years was never taken into account.

-In form four, i was schooling in convent. it just so happens that the states best athlete was in the same school. i had 4 gold medals and 2 silver. she had won fair and square with her 5 gold and one silver. But still... being in the same school as the states runner? just my luck.

- Form five in wesley.. sports day was yesterday. i took four events. i got three gold medals. i had also broken one record. The 400m record. She had two gold medals. But broke 2 records. For high jump and Long jump. We Shared the Best Athlete award. Below are the videos. Finally i got the title. Even if i had to share it.

The Unsexy

A few months ago, Belinda and i wanted to write a poem about making love and passion... We were brainstorming the elements that should be in the poem. Eventually, like all things we did in my short months in the convent, this happened.

it was getting very late,

He walked me to his gate;

His tie was out of date,

He whispered "Lets Mate";

I knew i should have opted to masturbate.

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We inched into the closet like room,

He was marinated in cheap perfume;

He Leaned in for my lips, but kissed the broom,

Then he said, my ears were like the moon.

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I felt like such a useless goon,

His back was hairy like a baboon,

I wished i could hit Zoom..

But, he promised he'd get a hard on soon.

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He Haphazardly peeled off my lace,

i saw all the acne on his face;

I wished his fingers were at the right place;

He seemed to be moving at a petty pace.

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He struggled to unhook my bra,

he pulled a condom from a yellow jar;

For some reason, he was calling me Sacha..

It was too late to run back to the car,

why did he have to park so fucking far?

i wanted to hit him with a crowbar;

I noticed his tatoo which said "made in india"

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Something smelled of rotten cheese,

then i realised it was the wind he released;

i was asking God, "Take me now, please!"

He thought i was talking to him and said-

"get down on your knees".

I wanted a guy who called me beautiful...but not too often...

i got a guy who calls me His...

i wanted a guy who called me back when i hung up on him..

i got a guy who tells me he's right outside my house when i hang up on him...

i wanted a guy that would stay awake just to watch me sleep..

i got a guy who promised me we'll fall asleep together every night someday....

i wanted a guy that whispers " that's her" to his friends when i walk by..

i got a guy that runs up to me and hugs me when i walk by...

i wanted a guy who was still crazy about me a Month or two down the road...

i got a guy who's still crazy about me Two Years down the road..

i wanted that guy that'll hold me close when i cry...

i got a guy that holds me close and makes me laugh through my tears.

i wanted a guy that isn't afraid to hold my hand in front of his friends..

i Got a guy who isn't afraid to hug me in front of his friends..

i wanted a guy who would throw pebbles at my window at night...because me misses me..

I Got a Guy who throws pebbles at my window after a big fight ...because he needs me...

i wanted a guy that missed me enough to call me every night when i changed schools...

I got a guy who missed me enough to walk to my house in the middle of the night to see me when i changed schools..

a guy that made my heart beat faster and slower at the same time..

i got that... and I got a guy who's heart beats faster for me...

I wanted a guy who always awaits my text reply....
I got a Guy who saves my Text messages just to look at when he misses me..

a guy that kisses me and tells me he cares...

I love it when we're right in the middle of a kiss and i can feel him smiling..

Black and White Rainbows

If you've hung out with Sonia Rachel and me... This scenario shouldn't exactly be Alien to you...

Sonia: its Pink..
Azelia:no, its not pink... its Red-violet...
Sonia: AZelia!! stop trying to relate everything to purple just coz' u like it
Rachel:She'll never admit smthn is pink...

Truth be told, i have an indecent obsession when in comes to colours..... I aslo have a great love for music, and am rarely seen without my ipod around my neck. Being lifeless (grounded), i decided to look this up. Sure enough- i found an interesting article that states Rainbows and music are made of the same stuff just vibrating at a different frequency.

Im of the opinion, when you appreciate colour, you would also appreciate all creation. And, ONLY when it comes to colours- i am a perfectionist. But, Why? Well...perhaps I'm one who finds one of the scariest nightmares to be the one when i lived in a world of black and white rainbows.

Here are some facts that you probably didnt know about colours...

• White alone has 7 distict shades.

• 69 % of people who's favorite colour belongs in the Cyan family think its blue... (thats about as wrong as saying they love red. To me at least) and another 29% think it belongs in the green family.

• Only 14% of the wolrds population knows the exact name of their favorite colour.

• Yellow and black has been proven to be the two most contrasting colours on earth.

• What we see, feel, hear, taste and smell exists between the frequencies of red and violet

• In a study by University of Washington in Louisville, people with red hair are more susceptible to pain and they need more anesthesia during an operation than people with other hair colour. Scientists explained that people with red hair have defective receptors that affect brain cells and influence pain sensitivity.

• babies tend to cry more in yellow rooms

• Leonardo da Vinci believed that the power of meditation increases 10 times when done in a purple light, as in the purple light of stained glass.

• the human eye detects 10 million different colours

• Ingesting small doses of ink over an extended period of time will change your eye color slightly

Below is an elightening chart on base colours, their various shades and their layman names...click on it.

(click it again with the magnifying glass to enlarge)

Dont take the rainbow for granted. Take the time to appreciate it.

Paradox

I seemed to have developed a new interest, Paradoxes.

The Webster's dictionary defintion of a paradox is an assertation or proposition seeming absurd, yet true in fact. A seeming contradiction.

What this means is, a paradox is a statement that may be true, but seems to say two different things. Generally a puzzling conclusion we seem to be driven towards by our reasoning...

Famous paradoxes :

# Double Liar Paradox (Jourdain's paradox)
This version of a famous paradox was presented by English mathematician P. E. B. Jourdain in 1913.The following is written on opposite sides of a card:
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Back side -->
THE SENTENCE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS CARD IS TRUE.
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Face side -->
THE SENTENCE ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS CARD IS FALSE.
.

#Simpsons paradox:
It is not necessarily true that averaging the averages of different populations gives the average of the combined population.

# What is better - eternal bliss or a simple bread?
What is better than eternal bliss? Nothing. But a slice of bread is better than nothing. So a slice of bread is better than eternal bliss.

A few sentences from life :

*Nobody goes to that restaurant; it's too crowded.
*Don't go near the water 'til you have learned how to swim.
*The man who wrote such a stupid sentence can not write at all.
*ADVERTISEMENT: Are you an analphabet? Write a letter and we will send you free of charge instructions how to undo it.

Think about these :

• 
  Let's say there is a bullet which can shoot through any barrier. Let's also say there is an absolutely bullet-proof armor which no object can penetrate. What will happen if such a bullet hits such an armor?
• 
  Can a man drown in the fountain of eternal life?
• 
  Your mission is not to accept the mission. Do you accept?
• 
  A girl goes into the past and kills her Grandmother. Since her Grandmother is dead, the girl was never born. If she were never born, she never killed her grandmother.
• 
  If the temperature this morning is 0 degrees and the Weather Channel says, "it will be twice as cold tomorrow", what will the temperature be?
• 
  Answer truthfully (yes or no) to the following question: Will the next word you say be 'no'?
• 
  What happens if you are in a car going the speed of light and you turn the headlights on?

i'll conclude with a challenge... come up with the best answer for this>>

#Crocodile Sophism
A slim crocodile living in the Nile took a child. His mother begged to have him back. The crocodile could not only talk, but was also a great sophist and stated, "If you guess what I will do with him, I will return him. However, if you don't guess his fate, I'll eat him." What statement should the mother make to save her child?

And She was Gone

She chose to walk alone

Though others wondered why

Refused to look before her,

Kept eyes cast upwards,

Towards the sky.

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She didn't have companions

No need for earthly things.

Only wanted freedom,

From what she felt were Puppet strings.

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She longed to be a bird.

That she might fly away.

She pitied every blade of grass

For planted they would stay.

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She longed to be a flame,

That brightly danced alone.

Felt jealous of the steam

That made the air its only home

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Some say she wished too hard.

Some say she wished too long.

But we awoke one autumn day

To find that she was gone.

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The trees, they say stood witness.

The sky refused to tell.

But someone who had seen it said

The story played out well.

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She spread her arms out wide.

Breathed in the break of dawn.

She just let go of all she held...

And then she was gone.